Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Frances Jane Beasley

On Friday November 19th in the early hours of the morning in a little town in Northern New Jersey, I lost my biggest fan; my Mom.  It was a very unexpected loss for us that came with no warning and still to this day has me shaken to the core.  Like some, I did not lose or question my faith but leaned on it and my family/friends to make it through a very tough time. 

My Mom, pictured in this collage below with my Dad, was a Nurse who lived a life that aligned with the oath each Nurse takes to all she came in contact with; she was a caregiver.  I heard many of those stories and others (wife, daughter, sister, aunt and friend)  during her homegoing celebration and continue to hear more about her life as my family bands together to cope with our loss.  BUT, I had to understand two things in order to get through this and put things into perspective.  1) She belonged to God first and that He took her back home to be with him so that has helped tremendously.  2) She IS still with us in LOVE and in SPIRIT and although she's no longer here physically, she lives on through those who knew and loved her.  I can still hear her voice in my head telling me it's going to be ok and that she will see me soon. 

I am writing all of this not as closure but as part of my journey.  An early part of that journey was to be transparent within the Facebook community as to what I was going through.  I couldn't express through the 420 character "status" limit how much the support I received through Facebook meant to me but I can through my Blog.  We all know the bad rap Facebook takes as some people have chosen to tell all of their personal business in that venue but we don't talk enough about how people have been blessed through the support of the Facebook community; family and friends.  I was blessed tremendously by their support through my journey back to the East Coast and travels up/down the highway from North Carolina to New Jersey and back again.  I didn't get a chance to respond back to every person who posted on my wall, who sent me a personal message or just prayed for me/us but I want everyone to know that I read each and every note.  Words truly cannot express how much it all meant and I thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart.

Getting back to my passion of photography is proving harder that I thought it would be.  I have made some small steps with plans for two January shoots because it's what my Mother would have wanted.  My Mother never saw a lot of my work so I plan on putting together a slideshow of my favorite pictures from the last few years as a tribute to her.  I am what I am today and have achieved what I've achieved because of both of my parents pictured below.  Please keep us all in your thoughts and prayers...

God Bless...

David N. Beasley Jr.

P.S. I have a major backlog of all the shooting I have done over the last 4-5 months and will be blogging about all of the shoots very soon.  In the meantime, please go to my website at http://www.davidnbeasleyjr.com/ to see the new content across the entire site.